We were all eating at my parent’s kitchen table, exhausted from a day of condolences and standing in a line receiving my mother’s mourners. We were all eating in her kitchen, but she was missing. Truth is she hadn’t been there in months. Instead she laid in her bed and fought her losing battle with cancer for three months prior. That night I arose from the table in a daze, wandered into my mother’s room and laid down as if beside her. I clutched her shawl in my hands, it stil

So it’s been just over a week I think since I last wrote.  It feels like a month has gone by… I’ve been preoccupied with having met a new friend, moving into a new place to live and discovering a cute local coffee shop where I can waste my days away and take in the atmosphere… and work of course 🙂 So… what’s really been going on?  Well I’ve been immersed in self awareness activities really, so much so that I have gotten a little lost in some emotions.  I have been reading Ga

Trying to control another person, or forcing someone to be different from who they are and what they are capable of, is not love.  It is more loving to let them go. If there is to be true love then there needs to be freedom within yourself and with the other.  Choose yourself first always. You can’t force anyone to act differently but you can honor yourself and choose what feels loving for you. When you feel or sense that first twinge of fear or attachment that is usually whe

Today is day one of the new Mayan Calendar, the new Baktun (cycle of 26,000 years), so in a way it’s New Years Day as well as our Christmas Day.  To the Maya this is the dawn of a new era.  An era of increased connectivity to Mother Earth and each other. It is an era of increased spiritual and personal development.  I had the honour of attending a special ceremony with Maya elders on December 21st.  The focus was on our reconnection to Mother Earth, so that we can give more o

On Friday of this week I had the pleasure of meeting an old friend from Toronto here in Mexico.  It’s funny because we have know each other for nearly 13 years and rarely get the chance to connect in Toronto. Now, of all places, we are here together in Mexico. He is just across the ocean in Cozumel and myself in Playa del Carmen. We had a great night together; eating, drinking, talking and most importantly laughing our butts off!  He came just in the nick of time too!  I had

I came to Playa Del Carmen with the intention to only stay 2 weeks. Quickly that turned into the intention to complete a 1 month Yoga teacher course in November. Then, even faster still, I had also decided to stay for the month of December since work always slows down in that month.  Well, my plans didn’t quite turn out that way.  I find myself here now, in December, without any Yoga training and no real plans. Yet, I’m contemplating staying here through January.  Am I runnin

This post was written this time last year and I just happen to stumble upon it while preparing to start blogging about my new adventures in Mexico.  I felt the post was appropriate for this time in my life and so many others around me.  I hope you enjoy it. Finding this was a great reminder for me! Relationships can be many things, rewarding, comforting, loving, friendly, passionate and sometimes a downright mess.  Why is this?  What I want to talk about today are the expecta

A year and a half ago, when my mother died after a long battle with cancer, I felt so many things: sad, devastated, relieved, grateful, and lost. The main feeling, after all the dust had settled, was confusion though.  What happens to all that love I asked myself?  Where did it go?  All the unconditional love of a mother or that of a husband, a lover, or a friend. Where does it all go when that person is no longer with us?  What about when you have a beautiful experience? Doe

Continued… I had arrived “home” after having set off on the very first of my adventures in finding myself and I didn’t feel at home at all.  What was this ugly feeling? The all too familiar feeling of not belonging, and of feeling disconnected and detached?  I wanted to separate myself from everything I had ever known, but why?  Partly because I knew there was so much more out there to learn and to see, and partly because I was ashamed of the perceived limitations of my upbri